Wineglass Wishes

Wineglass Wishes went through several different iterations of titles before I settled on this one.  I guess I was in a strange season of attitude, mentality, passion, self realization, and maturity.  It takes a long look at everywhere I've been emotionally over the course of my life.  It looks at my loves both past and present.  It visits the harbors I have docked at, the harbors I have sailed past, and taunts the harbors of my dream-state future.  It also introduces my alter-ego band ADHD (Australian Down Home Dingoes).  I was tested for having ADHD during the time I wrote this.  Disappointingly, I don't have ADHD...

“Wineglass Wishes”

By Australian Down Home Dingoes

(ADHD)

We've drank, and we've sang, and we've kissed in the rain, we've walked alone hand in hand.

We meet every night on a pure white beach, in a far off dream-world land.

We can't be together and we can't be apart wondering what to do.

Wrestling with the demons of our fate, the calling of me and you.

(Chorus)

Wineglass, empty glass, almost a quarter past, 11 to be exact.
Our time, the calling, night is falling, friendship is the pact. 
Wineglass wishes cast, 11 is the cry.
Our time, the calling, day is dawning, friends until we die.

So join me now on Slumber’s Ketch, it’s headed out to sea.

The open sky is blue and wild, I got tickets for you and me.

The Cap’n is a friend of mine, a seasoned and rugged soul.

I’ll wrap you in a blanket warm if the ocean starts to roil.

Drink and song all summer long wishing for our time.

The calling brings us back again each other we will find.

Hand in hand on white washed sand, memories in our heads.

The calling, the calling of our hearts without it we’d be dead.

(Chorus)
(Bridge)

I took walk in the rain, trying to wash away the pain, of what I thought could be

Hope it lingers in my soul with thoughts of destiny

My friend, my dream, my all in all, will there come a day,

When the calling no longer can be denied and you’re in my life to stay?

(Chorus)

And we’ll sing…

Wineglass, a new full glass, almost a quarter past, 11 is our cry.
Our time, the calling, a new life dawning, your wild blue untamed eyes.
Wineglass wishes, our wish at last forever we will be
Together as we were meant to be…the calling of you and me.

Wineglass wishes

Wineglass wishes

Wineglass wishes

"clink"

Painus Lupus - The Injured Wolf

There isn't a lot to say about "Painus Lupus" except that it brings to the reader the pain felt by the Alpha Male of a pack of wolves when he can no longer carry out the role.  It is a season of change embracing his passing as leader of the pack...

Painus Lupus

(The Injured Wolf)

So, so tired.

Thread-bare.  Only a husk.

Passion has all but faded.

Alone.  Cold.

Shattered, scattered.

Clinging, but by a nail.

Cannot fight, but cannot run.

Where has it all gone?  Where is life?

I must not die.

The day I cannot carry.

The night I cannot embrace.

Afraid to move.  Bound and mute.

I sink into myself…

Am I even my own friend?

Sometimes in the dark, I see light.

But then it too fades.

I am a shell with a smile painted on the outside – Like a child’s hermit crab.

Useful and needed, but in time, I am cast off.

Master of my own destiny?  Sure!

Well, maybe.  Unsure…

Heart aching.

A season?

Who knows?

Focus?

Hell, I can’t even find the lens anymore.

Tears are the only warmth I feel.

Cold, even they could become.

Am I truly alone?

Maybe

What is a love song without hope?  What is a dream without the possibility of reality?  What would we do without happenstance?  What is a rainbow without a pot of gold?  Maybe these things exist, and maybe they don't.  In the deepest recesses of our hearts and souls, ALL things are possible.  For anyone who has dreamed of the possibility of falling in love with a fantasy AND the happenstance of discovering a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow, "Maybe" is for you...

Maybe...

Maybe you’ll get this and maybe you won’t

Maybe you love me and maybe you don’t

Maybe I’ll see you or catch your eye

Maybe we’ll kiss and touch the sky

Maybe you’ll dance in your underwear

Maybe you’ll cut or straighten your hair

Maybe we’ll meet on a moon lit night

Maybe I’ll stay until the morning light

This is how it all goes…you wash away all my woes,

You make my skin tingle from my head down to my toes

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

Maybe a greasy breakfast for just us two

Maybe we’ll eat an animal cracker zoo

Maybe a Lite for me and a Light for you

Maybe you’ll peg a 15 for 2

Cuz this is how it all goes…you wash away all my woes,

You make my skin tingle from my head down to my toes

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

(BRIDGE)

Your favorite word is a glimmer of hope when all else might fail

And I dish it back out when I can sometimes all to no avail

Maybe tomorrow will be for naught

Maybe we live in a land that time forgot

Maybe the day will come when we can say

Maybe today will be the day

Maybe someday there’ll be a way

Maybe a chance that we can say

Baby I’ll be there ‘til your dyin’ day

I’ll never leave your side, hell, there ain’t no way!

This is how it all goes…you wash away all my woes,

You make my skin tingle from my head down to my toes

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

This is how it all goes…you wash away all my woes,

You make my heart smile through all life’s blows

Yes, this is how it all goes…you wash away all my woes,

You make my skin tingle from my head down to my toes

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

May….be….

Damned Judgement

I have no idea what climbed inside my head and forced "Damned Judgement" out of my fingers.  I used to read a lot of Science-Fantasy books as a kid, so maybe that's where the images came from.  I borrowed the graphic at the bottom from a Frazetta print.  This is the darker, more sinister side of standing before the judgement of man and the flight or fight syndrome.  If you close your eyes, you can almost see what is about to befall the main character...

Damned Judgement

Marrow hardens in my bones, my joints too stiff to bend

Lightning flashes distantly, I turn to face my end

For there off in the distance a lone dead horseman rides

He's come to reap my heart and soul and feast upon my eyes

I cannot scream, though I do try - nor can I gasp or blink

My end now fast approaching my fate begins to sink

Into my mind - my lone escape - reality implodes

The outlook grim I turn to him my sanity erodes

The night had turned against me, the rain it beat the ground

The horseman whipped his steed about creating horrid sound

I could tell his eyes were sockets void of light and life

Humanity, insanity a lifetime filled with strife

He’d been a noble years ago but then was cursed to ride

Eternal upon battlefields where lord and serf had died

For he’d claimed himself a mistress two score his age in time

Upon that lass he’d cast his life and courted her with rhyme

His wanton heart the public knew and brought a rapid trial

Though steadfast in his love for her, he faced the great denial

That his sons might cast him out; his Queen’d cut off his balls

His kingdom sold for happiness in ashes round him falls

Faster now he bears ‘pon me his stallion spitting fire

My guts begin to boil inside though heaped upon a pyre

Slammed shut my throat denies me air my head begins to spin

In a battle for my life I surely cannot win

He draws his rusted battle axe and wields it o’er his head

With all intent of Hell spawned hate, he aims to strike me dead

I’ve not a chance except to pray that Fate might change its mind

That in a second’s fractured state some mercy he might find

Yet in the final moments before my life is snuffed

I flash back to the evening I truly fell in love

I too like my jury lord engaged a lass like he

Two decades marked my junior a flaxen deity

The draw was true for both us two the night we fantasized

That love no matter what the cost can be realized

And so I stand before the axe prepared to meet my end

Content in love and happiness I now die for my friend

With mercy gone, my life is done my choices rent with blood

Of the lives I took with just one look this lonely bastard’s son

The only difference ‘tween this king and his impassioned prey

Is that I choose to face my fate upon this judgment day

Rest Stop on the Sea of Love

"Rest Stop" is about the period in life when you stop along the highway of life and reflect on the possibility of life without your significant other.  At some point, the idea enters your mind and thumps your heart.  Your head and heart then enter into litigation cross-examining your partner as well as your own being.  This "rest stop" can prove both enlightening as well as senselessly maddening.

I am sitting here at an undisclosed "rest stop" with desires dancing in my mind. Alas, I am shackled to reality, dying to set my fantasies free.

And you are there...

My heart cries out to you..."save me!" But I cannot reach the island...that is you...

I cry...Hope?

Yea, you are a lifetime away. I perish every moment we are apart.

Your visage, a beacon of love and hope.

Your caress, the paintbrush of an angel's wing...

Again, I die.

Over and over the minutes we spend separated.

I am a husk of a man, without your touch...

Steal me! I am yours!

Do with me as you wish, but spare me the pain of solitude and isolation. Hold me and form in my soul a foundation of hope...

I pledge, from now until eternity, my heart is your playground.  My body is your release. 

My life - yours to use as you will.

For it is love that anchors me to you on this sea of life.

Heart Attack

Heart Attack is dedicated to anyone who (yes, it sounds cliche) fell in love at first sight.  Hey, IT happens.  Who can deny their soul? Who can tell a heart to shut the f*** up?  When it is right, IT IS RIGHT!  Call me a liar, a hopeless romantic, a lunatic...whatever.  Either way, Heart Attacks happen...

"Heart Attack"

"You ever feel somethin’ inside that you can’t quite explain?  A feeling?  A tug or a pull on your heart?  A feeling that no matter how hard you try, you just can’t shake it?  It might hurt a little, or it might make you wanna rip your chest wide open so you can let whatever it is out.  It could be a heart attack...it could be love…”

I was feeling alright just as good as could be

But then you walked in and set your eyes on me

It went straight to my heart, oh God a heart attack!

I fell in love right then and I ain’t looked back

                               

Uh huh, uh huh a heart attack

Uh huh, love is a heart attack

Oh me, oh me, oh me oh my

I say this heart attack it just won’t die

Oh me, oh me, oh my God

Your sky blue eyes and your rockin’ bod

                Spoken: “Sorry…but it rhymed.  Heh heh…”

You know there comes a time when it all feels right

Can’t shake this heart attack mornin’, noon, or night

Hell I don’t wanna die but it’s kickin’ my ass

This heart attack it’ll never pass

Uh huh, uh huh a heart attack

Uh huh, uh huh love is a heart attack

Oh me, oh me, oh me oh my

I say this heart attack it just won’t die

Oh me, oh me, oh me oh Lord

That Heavenly scent and a cribbage board

                Slow and melodic bridge to…

All we gotta do is say screw the world

You know you love me and I love you girl

We’re both dyin’ from the same heart attack

Now raise your Poison Apple and my shot of Jack

And take the medicine that’ll take us baaaaack…

It ain’t the pills I take or the booze I drink

In the pool of YOU I love to sink

Don’t fish me out or dry me up

Is this a heart attack, or a heart in love?

Uh huh, uh huh a heart attack

Uh huh, love is a heart attack

Oh me, oh me, oh me I say

Please don’t take this heart attack away

Oh me, oh me, no man alive

Can know the feelings that I have inside

Oh me, oh me, I can’t catch my breath

I say this heart attack it’ll be my death

Oh me, oh me, oh me, oh jeeze

Somebody call 911 and bring the paddles pleeeeease…

Uh huh, uh huh a heart attack

Uh huh, love is a heart attack

Oh me, oh me, oh me oh my

I know this heart attack might make me die

Oh me, oh me, oh me I’m sayin’

Your heart attack is drivin’ me insane

A  heart attack, uh huh, uh huh

Heart attack, uh huh…

Heart attack

                                (fade to end)

It never felt so right, I never felt so free                               

As when you walked in and set your eyes on me             

It was a heart to heart, yeah it was a heart attack             

Hey Doc, a Poison Apple and a shot of Jack

I fell in love right then and I ain’t looked back…

                

A Leaf in Autumn’s Memory

We all go through seasons in our lives.  Some are gentle like the coolness of a Springtime afternoon shower.  Others grip us like Old Man Winter when Mother Nature pisses him off and he sends icy Arctic winds ripping through one's very soul.  "A Leaf in Autumn's Memory" hints at the end of Summer and the steady approach of old age as a season of love ends and a leaf begs its tree to remember how it faithfully adorned the tree in the beauty of love.

A Leaf in Autumn’s Memory

Think hard...is it Autumn? As the seasons change, so does life.  Spring and Summer (nights) have passed. Is Autumn truly upon us? I feel the nights getting longer as the colours slowly change.  While still beautiful, the impending starkness of Winter draws nearer daily. The solitude of stolen moments flicker as all that holds the leaf to the branch also begins to release its grip.  With waning earnest the leaf lets loose and falls victim to time and gravity.  Sadly, it floats - carried sometimes by a gentle scent or breeze.  Ultimately Autumn’s grip forces the tree to shed its adornments and the tree braces for the onslaught of Winter...through which only the hope of Spring shows promise.

Is it only in song and memory that we live?  An echo carried across the canyon of time.  It is by grace though, that two hearts share a familiar beat and that companionship would root eternally deep.  I am that leaf.  My colour is fading and my hold on the branch weakens daily.  Winter is coming.  The only hope is the promise of Spring and a new life for the tree.  You are the tree.  Weather Winter.  Put on a new adornment of leaves...keep this one, as the seasons change.